I’m pretty sure it’s in the first Avengers movie when Beautiful Mark Ruffalo as The Hulk reveals how he deals with his situation: “I’m always angry.”
That’s how I felt today. In retrospect, it’s how I feel pretty much all the time–about things that happened months, even years, ago.
When I pray, I always pray for personal things last. I want to prioritize other people.
Today I want to pray for me.
I am desperate for His guidance in dealing with my anger. Some of the things for which I am angry, I yearn for an explanation. I want to know why they happened, why I’m struggling to let go of them–why He’s putting me through this constant turmoil and frustration.
Being angry is exhausting. I am searching for how to let go.
I am learning that letting go is even more difficult than being angry.